The Big D

Everyone’s doing things that are getting them closer to realising their dreams. Am I not?

How I wish I was born with a silver spoon so I can focus my attention solely on school, to enjoy and make merry.

How I wish I can be free of worries like what to do with my parents because they’re getting old and the duty to support them rests on me, being the eldest kid.

How I wish I can be financially free so I don’t have to think about the future and the uncertainties they might bring about if I don’t do something about it right now.

Damn, I don’t even have a car to begin with.

You say I should be more resillient because everyone has got their own set of problems and that you have seen people becoming successful doing things ‘the right way’.

You say I am not working hard enough because I have time on hand but I’m not devoting enough of it to do what I’m “supposed to do”.

You say I am doing things the wrong way because nobody gets there using the method I’m using now.

Fact is that, you are not in my shoes. Do you understand me? Or have you even attempted to understand me?

Another fact is that, how many success stories do you hear, really? And those success stories – those folks have gone mad in order to get there.

Hey, I just don’t want to end up like the only guy here who makes “movies” for a living because we all know that we only have that audience to appreciate such “movies” right now. And no, I know that I am not that capable and I don’t aspire to walk that path.

I don’t want to wake up one day in the future lamenting about my sucky job with a meager pay and the horrendous boss I will face all day long

I don’t want to wake up in the future giving up my dream and end up like any other folk out there because I’ve forgotten how to dream.

Because I’ve seen too many dreams being smashed.

Because I’ve met too many people who have given up.

Reality vs fantasy, which prevails? There’s only one answer. It’s a sad fact: our media industry will really not take you places. But more likely, money will.

Hence, I am working on the dough first.

I still have a long way to go. There’ no hurry. I will still get there – one day.

In that way, the bread will be baked. The dream won’t remain as a fantasy. You know it will be well alive and kicking.